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So... I Turned 30!

Tuesday, 27 February 2018

Hey blog. It's been a while! Some things have happened since I've been gone, one of the biggest being that I officially joined The 30 Club! On 12th February I turned 30, and it was awesome. I know a lot of people find turning 30 to be intimidating, but I have to admit that I didn't. My husband Stu is 13 years older than me, and in our circle of friends I'm basically the baby of the group, so 30 just didn't seem that big of a deal.


Now that I'm 30, things have changed somewhat. I've decided to tone down my wardrobe, stop wearing wild prints, and dye my hair back to a natural colour.....

Or not. I plan to carry on being the same old Kitty! I threw myself a massive party two days before my birthday. I last had a party for my 21st birthday. An ex threw it and eight people came. Those eight people included the barmaid and myself. It was an utterly miserable and lonely experience, and since then, I have to admit, I've been the birthday Scrooge. I've refused to have gatherings or parties for my birthday, but Stu gave me two choices. Organise your own party, or be thrown a surprise party, you're only 30 once. The idea of a surprise party is truly terrifying to me, so I organised my own instead.

My 30th birthday party left me feeling so very lucky and loved. Family and friends travelled from around the country to spend the evening with me, I was truly in awe. One of the best things about getting older has been turning my family into my friends, and my friends into my family.


Turning 30 has made me realise that my life might not be necessarily headed where teenage Kitty thought it would be, but that it is headed to exactly where it is meant to be. With my husband by my side, with incredible friends, with a wonderful family, and with a house full of furry critters to cuddle. I have a job I enjoy, and my chronic pain is well controlled. Comparing my life in my early twenties, to my life at 30, I couldn't be happier! Early twenties Kitty was in an awful relationship with a horrible man, had life wrecking undiagnosed chronic pain, lived in a tiny box flat and had no real friends nearby. 30 year old Kitty is married to the man of my dreams, has a diagnosis and a means of treatment that works, lives in a beautiful bungalow and has the sort of friends I can only dream of!

Rather than being scared to get older, I took 30 as a chance to look back on my journey and how far I've come. And I discovered that I've come a long way and that I love the direction my life has taken. 30 has me feeling like everything is coming up Kitty. Sure life has it's issues and it's drama, but when I look at the big picture, all I can see is serendipity.

Much love, 
Kitty xxxx

So... I Turned 30!

Tuesday, 27 February 2018

Hey blog. It's been a while! Some things have happened since I've been gone, one of the biggest being that I officially joined The 30 Club! On 12th February I turned 30, and it was awesome. I know a lot of people find turning 30 to be intimidating, but I have to admit that I didn't. My husband Stu is 13 years older than me, and in our circle of friends I'm basically the baby of the group, so 30 just didn't seem that big of a deal.


Now that I'm 30, things have changed somewhat. I've decided to tone down my wardrobe, stop wearing wild prints, and dye my hair back to a natural colour.....

Or not. I plan to carry on being the same old Kitty! I threw myself a massive party two days before my birthday. I last had a party for my 21st birthday. An ex threw it and eight people came. Those eight people included the barmaid and myself. It was an utterly miserable and lonely experience, and since then, I have to admit, I've been the birthday Scrooge. I've refused to have gatherings or parties for my birthday, but Stu gave me two choices. Organise your own party, or be thrown a surprise party, you're only 30 once. The idea of a surprise party is truly terrifying to me, so I organised my own instead.

My 30th birthday party left me feeling so very lucky and loved. Family and friends travelled from around the country to spend the evening with me, I was truly in awe. One of the best things about getting older has been turning my family into my friends, and my friends into my family.


Turning 30 has made me realise that my life might not be necessarily headed where teenage Kitty thought it would be, but that it is headed to exactly where it is meant to be. With my husband by my side, with incredible friends, with a wonderful family, and with a house full of furry critters to cuddle. I have a job I enjoy, and my chronic pain is well controlled. Comparing my life in my early twenties, to my life at 30, I couldn't be happier! Early twenties Kitty was in an awful relationship with a horrible man, had life wrecking undiagnosed chronic pain, lived in a tiny box flat and had no real friends nearby. 30 year old Kitty is married to the man of my dreams, has a diagnosis and a means of treatment that works, lives in a beautiful bungalow and has the sort of friends I can only dream of!

Rather than being scared to get older, I took 30 as a chance to look back on my journey and how far I've come. And I discovered that I've come a long way and that I love the direction my life has taken. 30 has me feeling like everything is coming up Kitty. Sure life has it's issues and it's drama, but when I look at the big picture, all I can see is serendipity.

Much love, 
Kitty xxxx

28 Things I've Learned in my 28 Years

Sunday, 12 February 2017

Today I turn 29! I'm not massively into my own birthday, I much prefer celebrating other peoples and giving gifts, but I do enjoy getting to see my family and loved ones. For something different this year I thought I'd share 28 things I've learnt in the last year, some daft, some not so, but all new to me. So, here goes....

1) I really, really love BBQ sauce. Specifically Red's Unholy BBQ sauce. For some reasons I was convinced that I didn't like BBQ sauce but ended up trying a little bit at some point, and I fell in love. It is soooo good. Red's Unholy BBQ sauce is also vegan, so extra awesome points to them! Gimme it in pasta sauce, with fries, on pizza, with onion rings and cheese, mmmmmm.

2) There are some (not many still) but some retailers who do actually size women's shoe styles in a size 10. This year is going to be all about shoes!


3) That I still think peppers are the grossest thing ever, and I definitely won't ever not hate them. Their skin feels like flesh to me, they creep me out so bad.

4) That I can blog 3 times a week, every week, and not just because I'm forcing myself to write and shoving filler on my blog. I've really worked on my blog this year and am really proud of how far it's come. My aim is to carry on in the same vein for the next year too.

5) That Twitter is my favourite social media platform. I'm on it every day and I love it. I've met so many inspiring people because of it and learnt so much about myself and how to love myself because of the people on it. It's made me more focused and more political. You can follow me @kittyrambles

6) To embrace my height more! I've always swayed away from heels, at 5ft 11 I always felt self conscious in them. I'm probably going to write a whole blog about wearing heels and being tall.


7) That I cannot help but either think that something is just 'ok', or become completely besotted with it. I always end up super obsessed with my interests and get so into them. I never just like things a little bit! I still play PokemonGO every day...

8) That how much I fancy Freddy Flintoff is actually quite inappropriate. I am quite inappropriate.

9) That I cry at everything, and that's ok. I'm a hyper emotional person and I feel other people's feelings so much. I cried for half an hour the other day watching How To Train Your Dragon 2, and I am banned from watching any kind of programmes about vets.

10) That buying good, comfortable pants is an absolute must, and I really have to do better at this. Wearing bad pants all day is not OK!

11) That having my photo taken by someone else really isn't that traumatic, and that I can love photos of myself, even ones I haven't taken. My blog has forced me to be photographed by people other than myself, and it's been liberating.


12) That pink or colourful hair feels much more me than my natural hair colour. I feel so much more confident with my brightly coloured ombre hair!

13) That I really suck at wrapping gifts. It generally ends up looking like I've done it with my eyes closed and my hands behind my back.

14) That I have to have really hardcore cases on my phone, or I will smash the screen. No pretty cases for me, only the mega bulky ones to protect them from my clumsiness. Two screens this year. FFS.

15) To stop saying sorry so much. I used to apologise for everything, from a genuine mistake to the weather not being what someone wanted. I apologised for everything, whether in my control or not. This is a direct result of the relationship I was in before I met my husband, and something I need to continue to work on. Things that aren't in my control are not my fault, and I don't have to say sorry.

16) That there are never enough purple lipsticks. I need every shade ever.



17) That as pretty and cool looking as they are, square plates and bowls are a pain in the arse and do not fit in a dishwasher properly. Stick to round ones if you want them to fit!

18) Also, never ever buy scatter-back sofas. They will never look as good as the day you got them, and you will spend your life fluffing pillows and trying to make them look good again. I regret buying scatter-backs so much.

19) That while we have successfully trained Ashen out of his fear of jumping (yes really), his fear of the tight rope at the local park knows no bounds.

Ashen, the clearly terrible rottweiler who is very concerned whenever his human's feet leave the ground.

20) That when I talk to any and all animals I do a ridiculous voice that I don't even know I'm doing. I only know I'm doing it because my youngest step son now also does the same voice when he talks to animals... oops.

21) I will never get tired of spicy chips with cheese and garlic mayo. Nom.

22) And that I will never understand why Stu thinks cheese on chips is basically sacrilege. It's awesome!

23) That I am officially an adult because getting a new kitchen is the most exciting thing that's happened in ages!

24) That getting a new kitchen is also really stressful but will be so so worth it to be rid of our seventies nightmare that is literally held together with sellotape.


25) That maybe 40 succulents or cacti might be about the limit when it comes to our house. Because all the window sills are kind of full and maybe I should calm it down a little bit. Obsessed.

26) That cognitive behavioural therapy can be completely life changing. It was for me! I went from panic attacks whenever I was going to a social situation, or just avoiding them whatsoever, to feeling brave enough to walk into a pub on my own (providing that I know people who are already in it!). It's been incredible and I am so grateful that I found a therapist who 'got' me and helped me so much.

27) That 3 cats is the perfect amount of cats.

28) That sometimes life really does work out how you dream of it.


Because I got that beautiful long haired man, and I got the giant rescue puppy dog Ashen. I'm so lucky.

Happy birthday me!

Much love,
Kitty xxxx



28 Things I've Learned in my 28 Years

Sunday, 12 February 2017

Today I turn 29! I'm not massively into my own birthday, I much prefer celebrating other peoples and giving gifts, but I do enjoy getting to see my family and loved ones. For something different this year I thought I'd share 28 things I've learnt in the last year, some daft, some not so, but all new to me. So, here goes....

1) I really, really love BBQ sauce. Specifically Red's Unholy BBQ sauce. For some reasons I was convinced that I didn't like BBQ sauce but ended up trying a little bit at some point, and I fell in love. It is soooo good. Red's Unholy BBQ sauce is also vegan, so extra awesome points to them! Gimme it in pasta sauce, with fries, on pizza, with onion rings and cheese, mmmmmm.

2) There are some (not many still) but some retailers who do actually size women's shoe styles in a size 10. This year is going to be all about shoes!


3) That I still think peppers are the grossest thing ever, and I definitely won't ever not hate them. Their skin feels like flesh to me, they creep me out so bad.

4) That I can blog 3 times a week, every week, and not just because I'm forcing myself to write and shoving filler on my blog. I've really worked on my blog this year and am really proud of how far it's come. My aim is to carry on in the same vein for the next year too.

5) That Twitter is my favourite social media platform. I'm on it every day and I love it. I've met so many inspiring people because of it and learnt so much about myself and how to love myself because of the people on it. It's made me more focused and more political. You can follow me @kittyrambles

6) To embrace my height more! I've always swayed away from heels, at 5ft 11 I always felt self conscious in them. I'm probably going to write a whole blog about wearing heels and being tall.


7) That I cannot help but either think that something is just 'ok', or become completely besotted with it. I always end up super obsessed with my interests and get so into them. I never just like things a little bit! I still play PokemonGO every day...

8) That how much I fancy Freddy Flintoff is actually quite inappropriate. I am quite inappropriate.

9) That I cry at everything, and that's ok. I'm a hyper emotional person and I feel other people's feelings so much. I cried for half an hour the other day watching How To Train Your Dragon 2, and I am banned from watching any kind of programmes about vets.

10) That buying good, comfortable pants is an absolute must, and I really have to do better at this. Wearing bad pants all day is not OK!

11) That having my photo taken by someone else really isn't that traumatic, and that I can love photos of myself, even ones I haven't taken. My blog has forced me to be photographed by people other than myself, and it's been liberating.


12) That pink or colourful hair feels much more me than my natural hair colour. I feel so much more confident with my brightly coloured ombre hair!

13) That I really suck at wrapping gifts. It generally ends up looking like I've done it with my eyes closed and my hands behind my back.

14) That I have to have really hardcore cases on my phone, or I will smash the screen. No pretty cases for me, only the mega bulky ones to protect them from my clumsiness. Two screens this year. FFS.

15) To stop saying sorry so much. I used to apologise for everything, from a genuine mistake to the weather not being what someone wanted. I apologised for everything, whether in my control or not. This is a direct result of the relationship I was in before I met my husband, and something I need to continue to work on. Things that aren't in my control are not my fault, and I don't have to say sorry.

16) That there are never enough purple lipsticks. I need every shade ever.



17) That as pretty and cool looking as they are, square plates and bowls are a pain in the arse and do not fit in a dishwasher properly. Stick to round ones if you want them to fit!

18) Also, never ever buy scatter-back sofas. They will never look as good as the day you got them, and you will spend your life fluffing pillows and trying to make them look good again. I regret buying scatter-backs so much.

19) That while we have successfully trained Ashen out of his fear of jumping (yes really), his fear of the tight rope at the local park knows no bounds.

Ashen, the clearly terrible rottweiler who is very concerned whenever his human's feet leave the ground.

20) That when I talk to any and all animals I do a ridiculous voice that I don't even know I'm doing. I only know I'm doing it because my youngest step son now also does the same voice when he talks to animals... oops.

21) I will never get tired of spicy chips with cheese and garlic mayo. Nom.

22) And that I will never understand why Stu thinks cheese on chips is basically sacrilege. It's awesome!

23) That I am officially an adult because getting a new kitchen is the most exciting thing that's happened in ages!

24) That getting a new kitchen is also really stressful but will be so so worth it to be rid of our seventies nightmare that is literally held together with sellotape.


25) That maybe 40 succulents or cacti might be about the limit when it comes to our house. Because all the window sills are kind of full and maybe I should calm it down a little bit. Obsessed.

26) That cognitive behavioural therapy can be completely life changing. It was for me! I went from panic attacks whenever I was going to a social situation, or just avoiding them whatsoever, to feeling brave enough to walk into a pub on my own (providing that I know people who are already in it!). It's been incredible and I am so grateful that I found a therapist who 'got' me and helped me so much.

27) That 3 cats is the perfect amount of cats.

28) That sometimes life really does work out how you dream of it.


Because I got that beautiful long haired man, and I got the giant rescue puppy dog Ashen. I'm so lucky.

Happy birthday me!

Much love,
Kitty xxxx



5 Movies That Make Me Happy

Thursday, 15 December 2016

So, new blog series time! After the success of my 5 Songs That Make Me Happy post last week, I've decided it's high time my blog had a new series, so welcome to 5 Things. Picking just 5 songs was ridiculously difficult, so in keeping with impossible themes, this week I'm going to share 5 movies that make me happy. These aren't necessarily my favourite films, but they are ones that never fail to make me smile.

1) Hairspray (2007)


Yes, I really do specifically mean the remake, which I know some people consider a travesty, but I love it. The songs fill me with glee, I want to dance along, and I love that it features fat beautiful babes who don't change to achieve their dreams or find love. Queen Latifah is a total dreamboat in it and Elijah Kelley who plays Seaweed is everything. This is my go to movie for when I'm sick, it always brightens my day.

2) True Romance


So this list isn't necessarily all my favourite films, but this is my all time favourite film. Stu loves it too, to the point that we have quotes from it on our wedding rings. Patricia Arquette has never looked better than in this film and the fashions are incredible. We have an original VHS advert poster from this on our living room wall too, and we own at least 4 different versions of this on DVD and blu-ray. If you haven't seen this, watch it. It's cast is a veritable Hollywood who's who, yet so many people haven't even heard of it. You're so cool!

3) Con Air


The cheesiest action film ever made, and I bloody love it. When I split up with my last boyfriend the first thing I did was order myself a DVD of this on Amazon because I knew he would take it with him and I love it that much. I must have seen it 70 times. It is completely over the top and absurd and that's why it works. Nic Cage is just too funny in it, that accent. Put the bunny back in the box!

4) Stranger Than Fiction


I have to confess, I am not someone who finds Will Ferrell's particular brand of comedy funny. He just sort of comes across as man child shouting things loudly, and I don't really get it. However, Stranger Than Fiction shows a different side of him, and he gives a really nuanced performance you would never expect from him. It's a beautiful love story, and the 'flours' moment still makes my heart all gooey.

5) Mallrats


I am the first to acknowledge that all of the men in this do not deserve their happy endings, they are in fact, all arseholes. However, I remember seeing this film for the first time so vividly. I was 15 and with my boyfriend at the time, and he had done that cliche teenage boy thing of putting a film on to lure me into making out. Unfortunately for him, he put Mallrats on, so he got absolutely nothing out of me save for my hysterical laughter and immediate obsession with this film, Sorry Jon! Our friendship and my love of this film lasted much longer than our actual relationship did haha.

What are your go to feel good movies?

Much love,
Kitty xxx


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5 Movies That Make Me Happy

Thursday, 15 December 2016

So, new blog series time! After the success of my 5 Songs That Make Me Happy post last week, I've decided it's high time my blog had a new series, so welcome to 5 Things. Picking just 5 songs was ridiculously difficult, so in keeping with impossible themes, this week I'm going to share 5 movies that make me happy. These aren't necessarily my favourite films, but they are ones that never fail to make me smile.

1) Hairspray (2007)


Yes, I really do specifically mean the remake, which I know some people consider a travesty, but I love it. The songs fill me with glee, I want to dance along, and I love that it features fat beautiful babes who don't change to achieve their dreams or find love. Queen Latifah is a total dreamboat in it and Elijah Kelley who plays Seaweed is everything. This is my go to movie for when I'm sick, it always brightens my day.

2) True Romance


So this list isn't necessarily all my favourite films, but this is my all time favourite film. Stu loves it too, to the point that we have quotes from it on our wedding rings. Patricia Arquette has never looked better than in this film and the fashions are incredible. We have an original VHS advert poster from this on our living room wall too, and we own at least 4 different versions of this on DVD and blu-ray. If you haven't seen this, watch it. It's cast is a veritable Hollywood who's who, yet so many people haven't even heard of it. You're so cool!

3) Con Air


The cheesiest action film ever made, and I bloody love it. When I split up with my last boyfriend the first thing I did was order myself a DVD of this on Amazon because I knew he would take it with him and I love it that much. I must have seen it 70 times. It is completely over the top and absurd and that's why it works. Nic Cage is just too funny in it, that accent. Put the bunny back in the box!

4) Stranger Than Fiction


I have to confess, I am not someone who finds Will Ferrell's particular brand of comedy funny. He just sort of comes across as man child shouting things loudly, and I don't really get it. However, Stranger Than Fiction shows a different side of him, and he gives a really nuanced performance you would never expect from him. It's a beautiful love story, and the 'flours' moment still makes my heart all gooey.

5) Mallrats


I am the first to acknowledge that all of the men in this do not deserve their happy endings, they are in fact, all arseholes. However, I remember seeing this film for the first time so vividly. I was 15 and with my boyfriend at the time, and he had done that cliche teenage boy thing of putting a film on to lure me into making out. Unfortunately for him, he put Mallrats on, so he got absolutely nothing out of me save for my hysterical laughter and immediate obsession with this film, Sorry Jon! Our friendship and my love of this film lasted much longer than our actual relationship did haha.

What are your go to feel good movies?

Much love,
Kitty xxx


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5 Songs That Make Me Happy

Sunday, 27 November 2016

I've decided that I want to start doing more personal blogs as I haven't done many lately, and I thought it would be fun to share some of my favourite songs to make me happy! Here are 5 songs that always bring a smile to my face and help lift my mood.

1) Whitesnake - Here I Go Again


Stu and I both adore this song so much that we had the acoustic singer at our wedding finish his set on this so we could sneak back into the ceremony room once it was empty and we could dance about to it together. It makes me want to be all dramatic and perform it and I will always sing along to this, even though I loathe for anyone to hear me sing.

2) Bon Jovi - Wanted Dead or Alive



I can't resist a cheeky bit of Jovi, but this is my fave. Ashen our dog can get a bit anxious in the car so I sing this to him and he loves it. It's that kind of sleazy country inspired cheesy rock that just gets me. I know it's not cool to admit I like Bon Jovi, but hey, I've never pretended I was cool!

3) The Eagles - Life in the Fast Lane



The opening lines alone of this song just fill me with the urge to wiggle about. They have to be some of the best opening lines to a song ever; 'He was a hard-headed man, he was brutally handsome, and she was terminally pretty'. It tells a story and it is so damn catchy.

4) Meat Loaf - Bat Out of Hell



I am a huge Meat Loaf fan, my whole family are, so this song just takes me back to road trips with my parents and my little brother and us all singing our hearts out to this in the car. It is such an epic tune.

5) Destiny's Child - Say My Name


And the real curve ball of my list, is a bit of Destiny's Child. My tastes are very much rock, metal, punk, and a bit of country, but sometimes a song just grabs me and this is one of those. When I was a kid I had a tape with this on and I'd recorded it on the tape 5 times in a row so I didn't have to rewind it after each play. That's how much I loved it. I used to sit on my bed and pretend I was in the video, I absolutely loved it and still do. This is on my iPhone to this day and always makes me happy. I would love to do a photoshoot inspired by this video one day.

I could probably easily name another 5 songs that make me happy, there might just have to be a part two to this blog some time soon. What songs make you the happiest? I'm curious!

Much love,
Kitty xxx




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5 Songs That Make Me Happy

Sunday, 27 November 2016

I've decided that I want to start doing more personal blogs as I haven't done many lately, and I thought it would be fun to share some of my favourite songs to make me happy! Here are 5 songs that always bring a smile to my face and help lift my mood.

1) Whitesnake - Here I Go Again


Stu and I both adore this song so much that we had the acoustic singer at our wedding finish his set on this so we could sneak back into the ceremony room once it was empty and we could dance about to it together. It makes me want to be all dramatic and perform it and I will always sing along to this, even though I loathe for anyone to hear me sing.

2) Bon Jovi - Wanted Dead or Alive



I can't resist a cheeky bit of Jovi, but this is my fave. Ashen our dog can get a bit anxious in the car so I sing this to him and he loves it. It's that kind of sleazy country inspired cheesy rock that just gets me. I know it's not cool to admit I like Bon Jovi, but hey, I've never pretended I was cool!

3) The Eagles - Life in the Fast Lane



The opening lines alone of this song just fill me with the urge to wiggle about. They have to be some of the best opening lines to a song ever; 'He was a hard-headed man, he was brutally handsome, and she was terminally pretty'. It tells a story and it is so damn catchy.

4) Meat Loaf - Bat Out of Hell



I am a huge Meat Loaf fan, my whole family are, so this song just takes me back to road trips with my parents and my little brother and us all singing our hearts out to this in the car. It is such an epic tune.

5) Destiny's Child - Say My Name


And the real curve ball of my list, is a bit of Destiny's Child. My tastes are very much rock, metal, punk, and a bit of country, but sometimes a song just grabs me and this is one of those. When I was a kid I had a tape with this on and I'd recorded it on the tape 5 times in a row so I didn't have to rewind it after each play. That's how much I loved it. I used to sit on my bed and pretend I was in the video, I absolutely loved it and still do. This is on my iPhone to this day and always makes me happy. I would love to do a photoshoot inspired by this video one day.

I could probably easily name another 5 songs that make me happy, there might just have to be a part two to this blog some time soon. What songs make you the happiest? I'm curious!

Much love,
Kitty xxx




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My Selfie Story

Sunday, 24 January 2016

It is often quite surreal to see how you have changed over the years in photos. My hair has been every colour under the sun, I've gained weight, lost weight, gotten better at makeup, moved across the country, and most notably for me, improved my mental health drastically. It might seem like an odd thing to say, but selfies have really helped me see how much I have improved, and how much I have grown in that respect.

I suffer with social and general anxiety, and depression. I have seen therapists and taken medication, and thanks to cognitive behavioural therapy, I am unrecognisable from the person I was. I was incredibly lucky to find something that worked so well for me, and that I was able to improve my mental health.

Between 2006-2012 I was in an on and off relationship that was unhealthy and extremely emotionally manipulative. Thanks to selfies, I can physically see the toll it took on me. These photos were all taken in that time.


I was 'happily' showing off my new nose piercing here.


Celebrating my parent's 25th wedding anniversary in an amazing custom dress.

I look pretty miserable right? While I was looking for photos of myself from this period of time, it was actually really hard to find any, because I took so few.


And supposedly smiling. But I'm not. I can see that I'm not. Look at my eyes, those aren't eyes that are smiling or happy. This was Christmas Day. I still look so unhappy.

I was the right kind of age to love Myspace, the first generation that really took to selfies and documenting yourself, so over the years I have taken thousands of photos of myself. I've taken them because I felt cute, because I needed validation, or wanted attention, to show off a new outfit, or for so many other reasons. And they tell me such a story.


Look at the difference in smile between the photo above and this one. I look positively ecstatic in this one! (And I was, I met Patrick Stewart, dream fulfilled!). It is so obvious how happy I am, there is no comparison.


A random selfie with Stu. My eyes are smiling, and I feel happy just even looking at this photo.


And a recent random selfie to document new makeup I got. The difference in my smile is huge for me.

Taking selfies, and being able to look back on my old selfies, helps me realise how much I've changed. Mental health is a journey, and I can see how far I've come thanks to these photos. So often selfies are lauded as vanity, as egotistical, but I love them. Because if I was feeling good enough to take a photo of myself, that's an awesome day! I wish every day was a selfie day. I never used to take photos of myself, because I didn't think I was pretty, or cute. I do now, and that is major.

My selfies help tell me a story. That show me the sad quiet girl I was, and now the beautiful, bright and happy girl I have become. I consider selfies a big part of my journey towards self love. They tell me that I've learnt to stop being so afraid of myself, that I was worthy of feeling pretty and loved, and that I can love myself. I am proud to be someone who takes selfies and shares them regularly. Because the old Kitty would never have dreamed of doing it. She would never have dared to do it.

I love selfies, and I hope you do too.

Much love,
Kitty xxxx


My Selfie Story

Sunday, 24 January 2016

It is often quite surreal to see how you have changed over the years in photos. My hair has been every colour under the sun, I've gained weight, lost weight, gotten better at makeup, moved across the country, and most notably for me, improved my mental health drastically. It might seem like an odd thing to say, but selfies have really helped me see how much I have improved, and how much I have grown in that respect.

I suffer with social and general anxiety, and depression. I have seen therapists and taken medication, and thanks to cognitive behavioural therapy, I am unrecognisable from the person I was. I was incredibly lucky to find something that worked so well for me, and that I was able to improve my mental health.

Between 2006-2012 I was in an on and off relationship that was unhealthy and extremely emotionally manipulative. Thanks to selfies, I can physically see the toll it took on me. These photos were all taken in that time.


I was 'happily' showing off my new nose piercing here.


Celebrating my parent's 25th wedding anniversary in an amazing custom dress.

I look pretty miserable right? While I was looking for photos of myself from this period of time, it was actually really hard to find any, because I took so few.


And supposedly smiling. But I'm not. I can see that I'm not. Look at my eyes, those aren't eyes that are smiling or happy. This was Christmas Day. I still look so unhappy.

I was the right kind of age to love Myspace, the first generation that really took to selfies and documenting yourself, so over the years I have taken thousands of photos of myself. I've taken them because I felt cute, because I needed validation, or wanted attention, to show off a new outfit, or for so many other reasons. And they tell me such a story.


Look at the difference in smile between the photo above and this one. I look positively ecstatic in this one! (And I was, I met Patrick Stewart, dream fulfilled!). It is so obvious how happy I am, there is no comparison.


A random selfie with Stu. My eyes are smiling, and I feel happy just even looking at this photo.


And a recent random selfie to document new makeup I got. The difference in my smile is huge for me.

Taking selfies, and being able to look back on my old selfies, helps me realise how much I've changed. Mental health is a journey, and I can see how far I've come thanks to these photos. So often selfies are lauded as vanity, as egotistical, but I love them. Because if I was feeling good enough to take a photo of myself, that's an awesome day! I wish every day was a selfie day. I never used to take photos of myself, because I didn't think I was pretty, or cute. I do now, and that is major.

My selfies help tell me a story. That show me the sad quiet girl I was, and now the beautiful, bright and happy girl I have become. I consider selfies a big part of my journey towards self love. They tell me that I've learnt to stop being so afraid of myself, that I was worthy of feeling pretty and loved, and that I can love myself. I am proud to be someone who takes selfies and shares them regularly. Because the old Kitty would never have dreamed of doing it. She would never have dared to do it.

I love selfies, and I hope you do too.

Much love,
Kitty xxxx


Festwich Fashion

Saturday, 9 August 2014

The last weekend of July myself and Stu took his boys to a free festival called Festwich in Prestwich, Manchester. It was held over 2 days and features heavy metal and rock cover bands and is family friendly. We had such an amazing time! So much fun, well run, and the staff were all lovely. The highlights of the weekend bandwise for me were Mentallica, Knotslip, Guns or Roses and Ozzbest.

Fashion went somewhat wayside for the weekend as comfort was going to be key for 2 days in a field with the boys, as you know I had them up on my shoulders for the bands! They absolutely loved it :D I decided on one skirt to keep the packing light, and to take 2 t shirts with me, nice and easy.

My amazing sunglasses were super cheap from Ebay!

Stu got his cowboy hat from Sonisphere

The outfit! Skirt is from last summer from New Look, shoes are Dunlop low tops, and the tshirt is from the most recent Skid Row tour, modified by me! I wore leggings I'd cut into shorts underneath the skirt for comfort, meaning my tattoo was on show for once.

This was day 1. It was boiling and I tanned like crazy. My hair went up after about 10 minutes outside with it down haha! Classy photos taken in the car park by Stu.

Day 2 was the same skirt, with a different modified tshirt, this time the Lucipurr shirt in sold out limited edition orange from BlackCraftCult.


I wore different sunglasses the 2nd day. As much as I adore the other shades, because of my chronic pain they aren't the most comfortable, and as I was driving back from the festival late at night, comfy was the key to minimal pain, so cat eye sunglasses from Ebay it was!


I loved how I modified both of my tshirts, I also modified Stu's tshirts into vests with a different neckline for him for the weekend as well. He is now addicted and keeps bringing me more to do! It's super easy, maybe I should write a blog about it?

Festwich was amazing, and if you get the chance you should totally go!

Much love,
Kitty xxxxxx

Festwich Fashion

Saturday, 9 August 2014

The last weekend of July myself and Stu took his boys to a free festival called Festwich in Prestwich, Manchester. It was held over 2 days and features heavy metal and rock cover bands and is family friendly. We had such an amazing time! So much fun, well run, and the staff were all lovely. The highlights of the weekend bandwise for me were Mentallica, Knotslip, Guns or Roses and Ozzbest.

Fashion went somewhat wayside for the weekend as comfort was going to be key for 2 days in a field with the boys, as you know I had them up on my shoulders for the bands! They absolutely loved it :D I decided on one skirt to keep the packing light, and to take 2 t shirts with me, nice and easy.

My amazing sunglasses were super cheap from Ebay!

Stu got his cowboy hat from Sonisphere

The outfit! Skirt is from last summer from New Look, shoes are Dunlop low tops, and the tshirt is from the most recent Skid Row tour, modified by me! I wore leggings I'd cut into shorts underneath the skirt for comfort, meaning my tattoo was on show for once.

This was day 1. It was boiling and I tanned like crazy. My hair went up after about 10 minutes outside with it down haha! Classy photos taken in the car park by Stu.

Day 2 was the same skirt, with a different modified tshirt, this time the Lucipurr shirt in sold out limited edition orange from BlackCraftCult.


I wore different sunglasses the 2nd day. As much as I adore the other shades, because of my chronic pain they aren't the most comfortable, and as I was driving back from the festival late at night, comfy was the key to minimal pain, so cat eye sunglasses from Ebay it was!


I loved how I modified both of my tshirts, I also modified Stu's tshirts into vests with a different neckline for him for the weekend as well. He is now addicted and keeps bringing me more to do! It's super easy, maybe I should write a blog about it?

Festwich was amazing, and if you get the chance you should totally go!

Much love,
Kitty xxxxxx